Life Changes...

‘Life is what happens when you’re making other plans…!’ has been ‘My line’ for the past 3 years and as time passes I just think ‘how true’….

2.5 years back the problems in my life were ‘what should be the pattern of my new dress.’, ‘what will happen if I flunk all my papers’ etc etc…!! Taking up a job was indeed a big step… and since I was the only one doing it in my whole group, didn’t really know if it was the right thing to do…!! Learning to be a professional makes you love school and college - Life changes….!!

Suddenly life is all about ‘Images’ - ‘Be careful of what you say to whom’, ‘not everything is as it looks’ – were bits of advice from people who did care. Sometimes they were said coz that seemed the only thing to say…. I still fell down and got up bruised… Scared to make a mistake n really sorry to mend one… worked on instincts and wondered whether all this was worth the effort….!!! Whether I’m facing a room full of my batch mates, my friends or a bunch of people out there to get hold of the next opportunity before I did…?? I wasn’t sure… but time gave the answer and I knew the difference…!! Training starts the diamond polishing…. Life changes…!!

‘Taking care of yourself’ is what came next… never been out of the city on-her-own girl was now suddenly on-her-own… one needs to plan for his 2 square meals…. everyday, clothes don’t get washed n ironed by themselves nor do the they walk right inside your cupboard… everyday a person moves at least 20 things around and if they are not put back in their proper place, the house ends up being a garbage dump…! Electricity bills, phone bills, the ‘Bai’, ironing bills, milk, the list of things to be taken care of goes on…. And before you know it the ‘X’ Rs put into your account are now X=0….!! Staying alone makes you understand your parents better... Life changes…!!

Having a job…!! It isn’t just about being good at it… I think it’s more like ‘you need to love it’..! Cause only then can you get through it…!! 8 hrs a day... Saturday-Sunday holiday and lots of money... kya life hai, people say…. But much has been said, written, emailed, forwarded and experienced about it..!! How much can you learn…?? How much do you want to..?? Various systems mock me with these questions… and the more I learnt the more I feel like running a rat race… the finish line of which says ‘Even if you win a rat-race you still are a RAT’…But here we are.. Running, against time, wanting to get there faster… against ourselves, by breaking our own records..! Testing capabilities… screwing our health….!! Having a job and keeping it, teaches you why the world runs on ‘Currencies’… Life changes…!!

Falling in love..!! Suddenly its not only about getting goose bumps on seeing that special person or thinking that this is the ‘One’… it’s about wanting to know someone better…..And also know that this person is not perfect and yet he is special…!! The meaning of relationships goes on to not just having someone to go out with for movies and having fun. It’s about being able to bring out the best in each other; it’s about knowing the worst and accepting it…!! And at times it’s also about learning to let go, after all life isn’t only about the two of you…!! Thinking of getting married puts love in a different light… Life changes…!!

Believing in God…!! Making decisions, right and wrong, facing the world on your own, being alone, being responsible for your actions, suddenly having no one to pull you up when life gets you down and learning to get up on your own… well lots of reasons to believe that there is someone out there whom you can trust… someone you believe can see you as you are… and someone who can work a miracle…!! Cause sometimes when life seems to hit rock bottom… and you want to get a ‘lift up’ there is just one place to go to…!! Turning from a naughty girl to a responsible woman does need a little ‘out of earth’ magic… Life changes…!!

All through these changes you get to know “who” you are… you get to know what life is meant to be…!! You love, you hate... You wonder “why me”…?? You fight with people and miss the very same nuts when they’re not around…!!! You laugh through the tears and cry with the smiles..!! You nurture dreams, keep hoping to see better tomorrows…..!! And I think you just start realizing…. ‘Life IS what happens when you’re making other plans’ don’t you..??